||[Jan. 4th, 2008|02:23 am]
ever since the second that we hang up on the phone, |
i'm already starting to miss your voice.
and that was when i realised how much i depend on you.
perhaps the word, independent, is just a shield i use to cover my own weakness.
i don't know why am i suddenly emo-ing in my blog.
or rather even when the whole world collapse also bochap de eileen has changed.
i used to live in my own world.
nobody really know what i am thinking inside.
laughing at people's joke may just be another lie.
i won't force a fake laugh at someone else's joke anymore.
that's is so hypocritical.
life is hypocritical.
get an example?
chinese new year.
"HELLO! HAPPY NEW YEAR HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D"
sometimes i just wish to stay at home during that period of time,
though it means less angbao for me.
look at that line again.
i must repeat that line for umpteen times.
i mean i don't mind wishing people who are closer to me happy new year,
but to those whom i only see them like once a year,
it's a fake smile.
i don't even know why i'm typing this post.
venting my anger on blog out of nowhere.
and i haven't even train my own maple char yet.
well done eileen.
i have to wake up early tomorrow to vaccuum and mop the whole house.
sometimes, i'm just so glad that i only live in a three room flat.
and the menu for tomorrow will be...
prepare for balding session, eileen!
wishes for year 2008:
1. to last with Ren, as long as we can.
2. to get into TP.
3. to change my whole wardrobe.
4. to get a bag.
(apology to ngmin for borrowing your bag for such a long period of time.)
i'll return you after i save up enough.
5. to be able to survive in poly, if i manage to get into one.
i really don't wanna get lost in school compound.
that's so embarrassing.
go to bed, children.
go back to maple, eileen.
ren is the love!